Engaged for Battle

I woke up this morning to a war in my mind and emotions. I was fine yesterday. But several days ago I made a decision to consecrate myself to the Lord....wholly and fresh. To follow hard after Him, to obey with my whole heart, to stop making excuses in my life. I have not been on my knees so much in a very long time. It is a place of surrender. Surrendering my motives, my dreams, my sin, my pride, my selfishness and asking for Him to leave what alone is Him and His purposes.

I felt a literal shift in my spirit this weekend. And it came with making a choice. That's what our life is made up of, making choices. We make an excuse or we find a way as Faytene said this weekend. I have decided to find a way.

SO, I should not have been surprised this morning to the assault that threatened to overwhelm me. Insecurites I have entertained in the past, doubts of who I really am and what God has called me to, lies of the enemy.

This is where we choose. Am I going to stay and camp at this place or am I going to press through? Instead of telling how I feel to a human, I brought every bit of my weakness and tears to the Lord. I am so thankful that He does not get overwhelmed by our need. As I poured out my heart, truth began to invade my heart and mind. What I know to be true rose up inside of me and His word that has been in my heart fought against the lies as I opened my mouth.

I got out my Sword and through tears that seemed unreasonable to me, I spoke the truth of God's word. This is the picture the Lord gave me. You have aligned yourself with My plan and My purpose. You have made a decision to follow hard after Me and not make excuses. You are deciding to walk into the land that I am giving you. You are engaging in a battle that you have been passive in. You have taken your place in the ranks and the enemy does not want you there. Today he is desiring to push you out of your place. He does not want you aligned! As the troops gather and come into position for battle he is in a panic. He will try to dislodge your committment. He will throw lies at you that have worked before. Are you going to let him push you around or are you going to fight back in the spirit with the weapons you've been given. Fellow soldier, we must fight. We must fight to stay aligned.

Yesterday before this specific battle began a song that I have come to love flew out of the speakers and spoke fresh life and revelation to me. I am writing out the lyrics with a prayer that they will encourage you today if you are in a battle. We must fight and lay hold of what Christ has for us. We are in this together but the choice to fight or not is an individual one.

To Live Is Christ
I make a vow
My life will always honor CHrist
WHether I live or die

I belong to Him
He bore my sin
I owe this life to my saving King

Hallelujah
I am not my own
You are in control
Hallelujah

For me to live is Christ
And to die is gain
No matter what price I pay
I choose to give this life away

Only by the cross I am saved
Only by the cross I am saved